I've heard this Bible verse so many times that it didn't hit me until a few months ago: "He cares about even the minute details of our lives." This is in Matthew 10:29-31 (NIV). In the first quarter of the year, the Lord led me to pray for strength in the face of adversity and to pray against chaos/division in my marriage. I didn't understand why, seeing that my husband and I were in a GREAT place, navigating our differences with such finesse that would make people jealous! Like we were good, really good, and all was sunny and beautiful in my home. We even had productive discussions about what our "culture" in our home should look like, and we agreed on so many things, including communication and dealing with anger. Agreeing and doing the work were two different things. After we had agreed, mishaps kept coming up, but the Holy Spirit kept helping us remember our culture, so it was mainly a case of dying to pride and selfish tendencies for this new order
Motherhood has had me in the trenches, there are days that are tough and some that were tiring but the good days, the days that fill my heart with warmth and pride far outweighs the "not-so-good" days. If you have been following me (although I have not been fairly consistent), but still if you have you will know that almost a year ago, my life changed for the better. I gave birth to the most beautiful princess. And while I would never trade this moments for anything, my passion for writing and creating Vlogs have been on the back bench collecting dust. I never seem to have the time for the things I used to love until I realized I was expecting the time that was always at my disposal pre-baby, would somehow suffice in the midst of my day and I would be able to do a 4~5hours deep work to achieve productivity. Writing this now and I'm laughing at myself! Fairy tale! I have help for the major things. House chores, shopping, etc because taking care of a child/children is a f